Girl Time

We had a girl’s night last night. Two of my closest friends came over, we had wine and snacks, music and even a bit of a dance party in my kitchen. A time of beyond silly laughter and jokes, sharing and listening. We were ourselves, who we are with all of our uniqueness adding layers of amusing qualities to the evening. We have some pictures, but I think Jaime and Alanna may protest against the posting of all the pics… Well actually truth be told I was told a firm no to the idea, which I have to admit I am ok with...As we talked about life, what has happened in each of our lives lately, I realized how nice it is to have people in your life who know your heart. Who love you for who you are at this moment not who you were yesterday or in the case with these girls ten or more years ago. They get that we are changing and growing, meeting new people along the way that shape our hearts in good and bad ways. They get me, who I am and I get them, who they are with all of our mistakes we have made in our life, making us all the more human and all the more real.

As we shared last night, I was talking with Alanna and Jaime telling them my heart where it sits as of now. What my thought process is … How I am so excited with the chapter I have started with all the changes… moving to Portland, stepping down with Starbucks, being a wanderer for a while, simplifying my life. The factual aspects of steps I am taking that make me feel relieved and although at times I think it is a step back, I know that for me it is a step forward. I can’t wait to give in to letting myself be free of what society says you have to have, money and a career, a house and multiple cars. With this we got on the subject of all of our love status’s where our hearts are at this moment… Alanna said… well girls, let me give you a little advice. After listening to all of us weekly, knowing who and what and ultimately how much time we have invested in the people of all three of our choices, Alanna decided to break it down for us. She said this is my advice and it comes in the form of a Kenny Rogers song “You got to know when to hold ‘em, know when to fold ‘em, know when to walk away, know when to run. You never count your money when you’re sitting at the table. There’ll be time enough for counting when the dealings done”… Ah girls now isn’t that a simplistic answer to all of our questions on what we should do, who we should love, and who is worthy of having our hearts.

I think all three of us last night began processing that song… our eyes searching, biting our lips and thinking hmmm so how do you know when to hold ‘em, and ultimately when to fold ‘em. Last night all three of us were able to assess the others situations, quick to be able to give advice tell the other if they should hold ‘em or fold ‘em… It seems it is easy to decide who is worthy of our friends heart and attention. Funny thing is, as girls, the clarity can become a bit shady when you are making those calls for yourself. That is why I believe you need your “person” or in this case “people” that you trust to help you talk it out over wine and who ultimately help you see what is right, what will make you happy when you feel it is a bit foggy. They want what’s best for you, for your heart and your life and will guide you when you need a little help. Thanks girls, good talks, dancing, and laughing last night. We all needed that. Oh and Jaime and Alanna bet you can’t wait for this summer to visit Portland… Remember what the motto is ;)

Top pic Jaime and I rocking Dave at the Gorge 2009.. second pic Alanna and I showing off our Halloween cuteness 2009.. :)