Black and White

As we were driving today, being shuffled around the car on the bumpy Kenyan rode, my mind began to wander. I thought about how sometimes you think of your life in black and white, everything seems easy it’s either one choice or another. It’s that simple; right verses wrong, yes or no. I thought how it is interesting one day I will literally think, well it’s that simple I have it figured out. The next day think wow… where did all the shades of grey come from.

My best friend recently found comfort in a something I had written a while ago. I read it again today, a couple months later, and was touched on how it affected her as it did me. It spoke something to her that is helping her heal and find clarity in her life at the moment, and I can see that it something I will continue to read when I need to remember that life is ever changing. I had written “my reality has shifted and my heart will never be the same.” These words from before, hit home once again today. How true is it that so often in our “black and white world” we think we have it figured out and then your reality shifts. I wondered today; can you go back, have your heart retrace its steps; let your reality be built back to the beautiful city you had created?

I am finding that I am thankful that God has our reality shift and changes our hearts along the way. This is what keeps us living and thriving in our walk and our path. I think about how when we are young and have to go to school we dread it and try to get out of it. But when we are older, we yearn to learn new things, open our minds to a greater view on life and love and callings. We long to grow and change, and along the way give parts of our humanity away, the parts that are the grey areas that seem to hinder our ability to move forward. Our hearts, through this process of growth as we go through the grey area, get broken and put back together. Life is about trial and error, which opens the heart to new loves and can be painful and make us long for the black and white to return. But I don’t think we would go back if we could. Once we see life a little different, see a bigger picture a different view, we are able to appreciate life a little more each time.

I am thankful for this time to reflect on how we see our reality. I am thankful that my reality has shifted once again, in a different way then I meant it just a few months ago. It is exciting to be able to see the different shifts in your reality as you look back on where you have been. Along this rode there will be many shifts that alter the black and whites of your reality; your loves, your life, and your callings. I know that my heart is ever growing through these shifts and proving that I am glad that I am not able to go back.