Curvy Road

Life is such a curvy road, a long stretch and you are on a track of normalcy and then all of the sudden you hit it... the curve in the road. Ah the curve that you know is just ahead, you brace yourself but that doesn’t always fix the slight incline that knocks you around and startles your reality.

I wonder at times if you would take that curve if you had the choice. If you could control life and continue on the long stretch, the habitual road, would you or would you continue on that curvy path to see how you will react with the force of the push. The force of life comes in great strengths, and at times you feel your weakness will overpower, you will be crushed with the incline. You wonder at that moment if you would rather hurt or feel nothing at all. That question is a powerful one. One I have thought about so many times in my life as I take that bend in the road. If you could choose, would you rather hurt or would you rather skip the heartache, the curve, and never have experienced the pain of the impact. Can you seize the feeling, embrace its power, and hang on with all you have for time to show you just what this curve really means….

Well I think there is something to be said with how fast you take that curve. Now reality is that a slight curve and you could be ok, dominate the force with a bang… But sometimes the speed meter is at such a momentum that you are blind to the curve coming and unable to brace yourself or fasten your seat belt. The effect is a crash that breaks down the walls to your world. You at once shut down and recede inside, a self preservation reaction to the sudden impact that you never saw coming. You look at the people around you, to grasp for a normalcy that was once so apparent. Only to find you do not recognize the person standing there, or the place that you are sitting. Your normalcy seems all to suddenly a façade, which makes you doubt all that you have known to be true in your world that you built. You wonder if the world, the long stretch and straight road, that you have been traveling is where you ever wanted to be in the first place. This is overpowering, takes your breath away, and makes you feel weak with reservation. You then wonder if the outcome of the crash, to mistrust your reality, can be fixed. Can you go back to the straight road with no suspicion of another crash around the bend?

I have found so many times in life you have to follow your heart. Trust yourself, trust your long roads and trust the curves you take along the way. The question I ponder, would you rather hurt then feel nothing at all… my answer is yes. I am forever stronger for the experiences I have, and would not want to go back to the person I was yesterday if it meant to not have the new loves I have daily. I want to grow and see and not be made to travel on that straight road that keeps me stifled and less of the person I am meant to be. So be it curvy roads or long stretches of normalcy I will have no doubts that I am exactly where my God wants me to be.