Force of the push

I have thought on this subject often. I have written on it, created controversy with it, and processed different opinions on it. So I will write about it once more. Contemplate on truths and listen to what I know to be true….

Why do you think it is that we always want what we can’t have? Do you think that we would want it if we could actually have it? Or better yet, would we want it if we had to force it to happen. Or would the force of the push be enough to halt our hearts and change our minds… Maybe it would it become the clarity that we need in a foggy haze of what we only think will make us happy?

Well I have found that wanting something is part of life. I think that the urge to have something else, something that seems so right in your head, yet is just out of reach, is intoxicating and habit forming. May it be circumstances, life, fate or whatever you want to call it, you have to wonder if that thing you want, that you can’t get enough of in your head, is really better kept as a thought, a fantasy, in this life that is stifling and stagnant and desperately in need of excitement at times. As time goes on, life plays out, we realize habits are stronger than we realize. If the goal is to break the habit, maybe with time we can see that habits are nothing more than that, and once we fracture the habit in the slightest way, we will be able to see truth.



Is this romanticized version on life what keeps a dreamer a dreamer, a lover a lover, and a fighter a forever fighter for something better, something great?

Maybe

Maybe there are times in our life that the habit of the want is stronger than what we actually know to be true and just maybe stronger than the authenticity of the dream, which all too often is a skewed idea of reality and what is true.

Or maybe there are exceptional times when there is a reason why you just can’t give up. When you know that the thing you can’t get out of your head is your true happiness. Your piece that is missing from your spirit, that light that makes you shine stronger when you have it, then when you don’t.



In the end we all are the same in our humanity. We all have seen things we wanted but couldn’t have, thought of places we are eager to visit but don’t know when or how we can get there, and we all have felt love and then lost it. These all exhibit our longing for something else, illustrates how without true experience we decide for our self that it will be right for us. As I progress in this life, I am finding there are few things that are real and true and actual. My God that is leading my path is real, my one true thing. I have decided that in this life, if I find myself longing for something, if I begin wondering about what could have been, or never was, it is then that I will turn my head up. I will believe that if I don’t have it, or if life just isn’t going the way I want, there is a reason. I will continue to be silent and listen, opening my heart and surrendering to my path.