Rivers and Cliffs

This life is leading me down rivers that I never even knew existed. From the valley of my home town to the mountains of my new, I am enamored by the river of life that makes up the pages in-between.

I have fallen in love many times in my life. Not just in relationships with other people, but with other passions that take up my time. I have fallen hard and fast without leaving room for the idea that not everything works out. Somehow, during these times of jumping off the cliffs hoping that the water is calm below,  I have realized that the experience of jumping can be just as powerful as the mind blowing love waiting below... and I now know the depths of the risks associated with these jumps.

I continue to walk on cliffs.  Following my heart to new places with risk that at any time the side of the path that I am walking on may crumble into the river below. It can be terrifying and exhilarating, all wrapped up together so intricately that I can’t tell the difference between the two extremes. As if they are the same emotions playing dance together in the rain. A beautiful dance being played out on the side of this cliff, hoping for the best but being content with knowing the worst is just around the corner.  

As I walk along this journey with raging rivers below waiting to catch me when I fall or when I choose to jump, I am continuously transfixed by the moving water below. My eyes search for normalcy, trying to define new ways of normal in an ever changing journey of rivers and cliffs. My hands reach out to touch the cliff walls and the water below me. My heart search is complete, in these moments of silence. Content with the knowledge that I now know the depths of the top and the bottom.

I cry out for the past and am enamored by the future. The current moments hold my attention, my eyes looking to what is standing next to me, quietly surrendered to these beautiful moments that are making up every page of the journey onward.

As this life leads us up and down valleys and mountains, the river is waiting for us. Calling out to remind us that this cycle of life will continue on as we choose to play it safe or find love by finding the perfect place to jump off of the cliff.