Eternal Love

I believe that Love is all we have. I believe that this world, this complex and crazy place, is too much for us to do on our own. It is bigger than we are, it's meaning and purpose far exceeds what we can imagine or are able to understand. I believe that what we need to know is that Love, pure and true, is the basis of this world and the reason for everything. I believe that God is Love and Love is God.

I have felt a lot of anger over the last month as I think about the fact that my loving and beautiful husband has died. I feel anger at him, at the Grand Canyon, at God, but mostly just angry that I don’t have the amount of time that I want with him. I don’t get to kiss him, snuggle him, listen to his stories, and tell him my every thought. Most importantly I don’t get to let him guide me down our path anymore. As I have reflected on my path and the road of life that led me to him, I realize that Love has, and will continue, to lead me. I know it's ok to feel anger, but I know that anger will not take over my heart. My heart is full of love and full of thankfulness.

I’m so thankful for Love. Curt showed me, through his actions, that true love exists. I am forever grateful for this. Since my husband died, I have reflected on our Love, but also on what Love means. At our wedding we read this well known scripture. It meant a lot to us then, but through this time of reflecting on Curt and God’s Love, it means so much more.  1 Corinthians 13 4-7  Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I have seen the power of Love, and what it does. I have felt it first hand. Love is everywhere. It is God, and it lives inside of us. Love is why we are here. God has infinite amounts of Love for us and we are here to feel that Love and to show Love to one another. I believe that through our actions, everyday, we have the chance to show Love and to change the world.

Curt was the most thoughtful, loving, and real person I had ever met. His Love for me was always first, always giving. He adored me, flattered me, built me up, and treated me with respect always. He exemplified God’s Love through his actions. He understood God's Love.

I miss my husband with every ounce of my being. I miss his laughter, his smile, his grace, and his strength. Curt knew how to love without limits. His Love for me was unending, which means it is still here. His Love is in my heart and soul, wrapped so tightly that it is part of who I am. Because of God’s Love, Curt and my Love is eternal. That is our gift. I will continue to live life just like this. Feel God’s Love, and give it with all I have. I will change the world with my powerful Love story.