The calm before the storm

Feel the warmth, the way it feels on your skin. The way it wraps around you like a blanket, making you feel safe, yet knowing it is coming. The fragile way you hold your emotions as if at any moment they will be changing. You only wish you could hold onto them, the way they are now, for one more second, and hoping the seconds will be enough to remember them as they are. You know you want the change and more importantly need the change, yet you only wish now, at this moment, for the moments to continue on a little longer. But now is the very moment it is changing. It comes in a wave, as if it is an ocean carrying your life in its embrace, in a current that is alive with your spirit, giving it the freedom to soar. Rather than the devastation that you expect to feel from the change, relief is the first wave that settles over your body. It sooths your conscious and lifts you up. Your first glimpse of a new certainty and a new beginning so relieved to feel for the first time that you were right and can trust yourself and have peace with your decision. The second wave is a bit of sadness for the loss of what once was a dream, a dream that in your reality at that time was all you thought you needed or would ever want. The wave is inevitable because any loss, whether for the best or not, comes with a bit of sorrow over what could have been and what was once your vision that is now being let go. You embrace this wave as well knowing in your heart that it deserves to be mourned. To be buried in your heart along with every other thing you can remember about that time of your life that did not work and has to be let go. This turns the wave into a celebration of the experiences that you have had in turn changing and shaping you into the very person and being that you need to be in order for now to be happening. Thankfulness is the last wave, the wave that carries you to the shore and lands you gently on your feet. So thankful for whom you have become, and for all that is to come. Thankful to be walking on the shore, away from the waves, and heading to a land that is full of promise and new beginnings. You now know you will continue to know yourself better through every wave, and every storm in this crazy life.