Letting Go

There is something to be said with those words, the simple words that seem to weigh you down, yet set you free at the same time. The simplicity of saying it, yet the weight of what it means, overwhelms and clouds your focus of what reality really is. So many times and so many circumstances make you want to hold on as long as you can and doubt what you know to be true. I have learned that it can turn poisonous for your heart if you hold on for too long, and don’t give it away and trust yourself in the process. Time I am finding is the only thing that will make you strong enough and at peace enough to truly move on. Trusting yourself, knowing who you are and what makes you complete, is the foundation of empowering yourself to move on. Loss in any situation, whether it is through choice or circumstance, is not an easy process. It takes you through the memories that you have stored, one by one, giving them an aliveness and realness with all their beauty and all there ugliness together once more. It then puts them to rest, one by one, and gives them peace for they have had your attention, thoughts and emotions for the last time. They are forever a part of who you are and who you have become, but will not overtake you, or entangle your thoughts in a web of confusion any longer. It is overwhelming, remembering the good makes it hard to breath, and hard to let it rest which is why you have held on for so long. I have felt the gravity of what it means in your life to truly let something go that makes your heart feel empty, and your stomach ache with a longing that seems to be never ending. There are times when you realize that to let it go is the only thing that you can do, that you are not given another choice. These are the times that can make you grasp for the ability to take control and fix the unfixable in a last attempt to change what is not in your hands. You secretly hope that maybe if you let it go, it will come back to you stronger yet knowing you are forever stronger for letting it go for now. There are also times when you are in control, that you do have a choice and letting go is what you choose. These times are just as hard, for you rely strictly on your heart and your strength and your trust in yourself to change your life as you know it. I know my heart is forever stronger, forever changed by the times I have had. I have found that through loss and letting go, I have gained insight and inspiration for the time to come. I have loved with all I have and learned along the way. Letting go is a powerful process that turns the page to the next chapter of your life.